celia

You look ok from the outside.  But youre not fooling me.

 Inside your perfect little world everything is coming down.

Youre life isnt a fairytale. You arent liviing happily ever after.

Youre living the complete opposite.  Youre trapped.

Youre living like a robot. Doing every single thing  your told.

I don't know you anymore. All I can say is I told you so.

Your not the person I loved. Not the person I shared everything with.

Not anymore. Youre like a stranger to me.

All I have to hold onto is the memories  of what used to be.

This is all wrong. This is exactly how thhings shouldn't be.

Everything seemed picture perfect.

God was I wrong.

 I thought I was living in a faiirytale. It seemed to be your fairytale.

We were living happily ever after.

But it came crashing down.  (down, down, down.)

heres the printed ticket. hahah

through out the day i was seriously so extremly happy i was smiling for a majority of it. this will be a long enrty bc claire told me she wanted alot of details lol.

ok sooo lets get the details going. so i got to the palace at like 4ish. and waited for my friend sam who i meet via livejournal (: i found her and we had to wait outside for like an hour and a half which sucked bc it was freezing out and i had t tanktop on. then we got to go in early to get the meet and greet wristbands and stuff. and stood there for another hour. then will came out and told us to stand in a single file line and we walked to the bus. as we walked to the bus we had to pass all the ppl still waiting in line for their tickets and all you heard was they get to meet them! lucky! and stuff like that. so we get to the buses and get the rules and stuff. it was no taking pictures while they were going down the line signing things. limit of getting two things signed. no phone calls, and no hugging. and we stood there for like 5 mins about waiting for the band to came out until finally hayley popped her head around the corner and there they were! they all seem kinda small in pperson to lol. but jermeys tall. anywho, i had made them all a gift, well me and claire did, so my hands were shakin as i was tryin to out the cds in the order they all lined up. i was towards the end of the line so i had time to calm myself lol. josh came first. he looked mighty fine might i add, and he said hey whats up and asked how i was. i said pretty good and i asked how he was doin. then i said my friend and i made ya a little somethin and his eyes got wide and said aw thanks! and asked what was on it and i was at a loss for wordds so i was like uhh ya know some stuff, but he laughed so it was cool. then zac came. hes kinda quiet. you would think hes not from videos weve seen but he is. he liked the cd and how i put his name on it. haha then taylor came along. hes the sweetesttt. he asked how i was doin and i said im doin swell (embarrassing) and i asked if he was doin all right. he was and i said i made ya somethin and he said ohh my gosh it has my name on it! lol i laughed and said it was a mix cd and hed like it. hayley came next. shes def a shorty haha. along with the cds claire and i each wrote a note and then a tracklist of the songs and why we choose each song. so hayley came to me and said she liked my shoes and asked how i was doin. so we talked fer a min and i said me and my friend made you this mix cd and shes like oh my gosh i lovee cds and then i said with it is a note and then why we choose each song. but dude my voice was soo fuckin shaky as i was sayin that. but she was totally cool. jeremy was last. he had soo much energy. he drew his face on my shirt lol and said he couldnt wait to see what was on the cd.

then came pictures. now you prolly dont know this but i HATE taking pictures. hate hate hate. but of course this was an exception. so i go stand by them and hayley did this funny pose i forget what iwas and will tries takin the picture and MY FUCKIN CAMERA DIED. i was pisseeddd. so i had to use my shitty phone camera so heres the pic.

ya i hate that camera. anyways pictures finished and everyone started talking. i was able to talk to hayley for a minute like one on one before everyone swarmed her. she asked if it was my first paramore show and i said no TFR tour was my first one. and then everyone started sayin stuff. and she talked about their first show in detroit and how it was at the shittiest place every and they met a hobo named papa smurf. so then sam, was talkin to josh about the braclets she made for them so we both got a pic. luckily she had a camera and took this for me

and one with jeremy

so poor tay and zac were standing there alone so me and sam went to talk to them. they were super cool. we talkked about how we hate when people go to shows and just stand there and dont have fun. tay said like some shows theyve played recently the people in the front row are no doubt fans so they pay no attention to anyone but no doubt. and taylor said he hates havin to act like hes having fun when the crowd totally sucks. then he asked if i was out of school i said yeah for awhile and hes like any plans for college i was like nahhh so he said ohh just gonna hang i was like yeah and then i was like wait a second, im only going into 10th. he thought me and same were going into college. ahaahah. and zac asked how old i was i said 15 and he was like ohhh right around johns age. i was like haha yeah (: and we laughed. then will had to break up the fun and it was time to go so taylor said thanks again for the cd and i said anything and ill see ya around and he was like wait hug!! so he gave me a huge hug. ahh i was happy lol. and zac said later buddy and put his arm around my shoulder. so we started to walk and hayley was right in front of us so i was like wait picture! so sam took it. i got cut out ): thanks sam lol but i dont care bc i was standing next to hayley williams hhaa. here it is.

so then it was show timeee. we got to the pit and we were pretttyyy close to the barricade so i was satisfied. but for some reason there were a lott of bitchy women around us. like these poor little girls it was their first concert and they were in the pit lol and their dad pushed through and were standin right by us. i didnt care at all. they were short and couldnt see. but this lady starts flippin outtttt on them sayin shit like we got here so were stayin here. iwas like ok you bought pit tickets and you didnt expect to get pushed around? i felt so bad for those little girls though.

beoudin soundclash was pretty good. no idea who they are but the lead singer was a hottttieeee.

paramore still always amazes me. theyre so upbeat on stage and never disappoints me. i was like right in front of taylor. so i watched him most of the show lol. at one point he waved at me and sam! sam screamed taylor and we waved and he waved back (: hayley was good with the crowd as always. she was amazed at how big the crowd was. it was almost sold out. umm i liked the setlist they played. im really diggin ignorance. they only thing i wish they did was play freakin my heart with joshs screaming. hopefully theyll play old stuff like they said they would next tour and thatll be on there... heres a few ppics i got. remember camera died. these are from my phone

sucky i know i know. ok so when no doubt came on i got pushed to the barriacde so i was seriously five feet away from them. i could fricken see stretch marks on gwens stomach i was so close. no doubt is seriously amazing. like i was blown away. every single person in the arena was on their feet and jumping. tony is like a crazy good bass player. i was fricken blown away. i cant put into words how crazy it was. im pretty freakin glad i can say ive been front row at a no doubt concert. but i got NO pictures cause my phone died.

that had to be the best day of my life.

btw anyone have some good music you listen to when your sick? i need some new songs and some good ones at that.

ive gone through a transformation. hahah. i got my braces off!!! woo and just the other day i got my hair dyed. it used to be a really light brown with some blonde in it and now its a very dark auburn brown. theres a lot of red in it and some black in there. its kick ass dude. ill get a pic up someother time.

and im accident prone so i of course have a story. softball game and i slid into second and its not a breakaway bag so my ankle collided with it and long story short the three ligements surrounding my ankle are almost torn. yay (:

so how are all of you? i hope to catch up with you guys soon.

<3 celia